Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Well then...

Well now, look at me, rocking my "blog everyday" resolution. Why do I set such lofty goals?! Ugh. Also: this is why I never choose "working out" as my resolution...because 37 seconds into it I'd be all, "nah...too much work, please pass the chips."

In my defense, life is INSANE right now...insane with a dose of PMS to top it off. So yes, you SHOULD feel sorry for my husband right now. And my kids. And my co-workers. And pretty much anyone that looks at me or crosses my path or BREATHES THE SAME DAMN AIR AS ME.

Because it sucks to be them.

During our event meeting tonight I realized that the big day is next Friday. Ahem. Did you hear that? NEXT Friday! I just lost a week of my life and suddenly OH MY GOSH everything has suddenly become super urgent. Urgent as in, it should've been done last week.

Interesting tidbit: we suddenly have more empty bottles of wine in our recycling than usual.



Don't get me wrong, though...I enjoy organizing this event and I'm extremely passionate about it, but man alive. These last weeks of planning are taxing. My mind doesn't shut off and the last minute details are suffocating. But it is worth it...it truly is...and the bonus is that I get to spend a lot of time with some pretty incredible and equally passionate women.

The next 10 days are going to speed by and before I know it the night will be here and over...it's like a wedding. Or Christmas. So much planning and preparation and it's over before you knew what hit ya.

But you know what just hit me? Overwhelming fatigue...to bed I go.

See you tomorrow (I think...),
M.

Friday, January 13, 2017

It's Friday the 13th!!!

Today was like a weird time warp...I got to work, turned around and suddenly it was lunchtime?! Then, I swear to you, it took 17 hours, SEVENTEEN HOURS, to go from lunchtime until the end of the day.

What the heck.

In the future, I'd prefer my days go much like this morning did...lightening fast!

Anyway...happy Friday the 13th! I'm feeling bad for my L&D friends right now. Friday the 13th AND a full moon??? Ugh. I can't imagine what tonight will be like...but I guess I'll find out because I work there tomorrow morning! Yahoo! I think?

I have this weird love/hate with my hospital shifts...as they are approaching, I sort of dread them, but then I get there it's totally different...I enjoy it and the time flies!

I was asked if I was going to Five Question Friday again...and you know what? I think I will! Maybe not every Friday, but that was fun, wasn't it?!

Off I go to a hockey game!



See you tomorrow (but really, probably Sunday)!
M.

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Day 11

Here's something you may or may not know about me...my husband and I teach religion classes for a class of 9th graders in our parish.

It's equally exhausting and exhilarating. These kids. One moment something amazing and deep and enlightening comes out of their mouths and the next moment they're suddenly talking about SnapChat and nicknames and OHMYGOSH I HAVE PHYED FOR TWO HOURS! 



I can't keep up.

Well, I mean...I lie. I guess I can. I get sucked up into their sidetracks so quickly I don't know what hit me and pretty soon I find myself trying to find a lesson in what they were talking about but realizing that in NO WAY does it pertain to what we were talking about before the sidetrack and then I just defer to my patient husband. Who sits there shaking his head at me. Please send help. For my husband...he could use a more focused teaching partner! ;)

We teach in our house, which leads to a really nice, relaxed, conversational approach to teaching...but also makes me 1. sweat about the piles on laundry waiting to be folded, 2. the dust on the steps, 3. the supper odor lingering, 4. dirty mirrors, 5. dirty toilets, 6. you get the picture. AND THESE ARE KIDS. They probably don't even notice 1/2 of it!

And yet, I can't seem to motivate myself to have a perfectly clean house every Wednesday, either. So, maybe I really don't care all that much? Oh, there is SO MUCH psychology behind this. SO. MUCH.

Also, remember those squats I talked about needing to do before we left for Colorado? Um. Ahem. Well, I think I worked out once and did a few random squats the other day.

Whoo whee! Look at me go! I am the living picture of motivation, my friends!!

Speaking of motivation...I'm super motivated to hit the hay right now. So with that...

See you tomorrow!
M.

 

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Day 10

I bet you all thought, "Oh sure, EVERYDAY, M.???" and that I was about to go two whole days with no blog post, right?! Well, have no fear! Your Day 10 blog post is here!

It's been a couple of long days...if I've said it once, I've said it a million times, sweet young mamas, embrace these newborn/infant/toddler days. You think they are busy and exhausting, now, but I would give ANYTHING for just one day when my kiddos were itty bitty. When our worries were about whether we were going to have mac and cheese for lunch (again) and if I would be able to coordinate nap times successfully (usually not). Sigh...such is life. And growing up is good too.



(*Gulp*...look at my babies!!! Waaaaaaah!!! Oh, and my adorable itty bitty nephew, too!)

I guess. ;)

Anyway, yes. Busy. Crazy. Work, activities, friends, 21st birthday parties (no not mine, but you're so sweet for thinking so! Oh...wait...nevermind...), committees, school fundraisers, HOCKEY. Gah. 

This, my friends, is just the season of life I am in...and I know one day, I will be saying, "What I would give for just one more day when my kiddos were all at home...".

So embrace and enjoy this time, I will! It's a daily struggle to live in the moment and enjoy what I have right in front of me...and man alive, I sure am blessed.

See you tomorrow!
M.

Sunday, January 8, 2017

Day 8

When I said "everyday", you didn't think I meant EVERYday, everyday, did you?

Yesterday I was home for one hour...ONE hour before we came home for the night, I showered and hit the sack. I was tiiiiiiired. Worked a hospital shift (yup, I still do that whole Labor and Delivery thing...I just can't seem to give it up!), came home, snuck in a 45 minute power nap, headed to the arena for a concession stand shift, then watched my hockey player play, went out for a late supper, and whoa.

 

It was a long day.

So, some of you that know me may be scratching your head thinking, "Hockey? Really?"...yup. We succumbed. Our 13 year old broke us down and talked us into letting him play youth hockey. It's been the best and worst decision we've ever made.

Worst because: Hockey life. Ugh. (No down time, no free weekends, lots of dedicated time, blergh.)

Best because: It turns out this kiddo has some passion and skill for the game. For a first year skater he is doing pretty dang well, but it's his passion and love for hockey that has me hooked. He works so hard and enjoys it so much, it makes it hard to hate!


(And, I've gotta admit, hockey is a dang fun sport to watch!)

 I think we're in this for the long haul...I've been resisting the term "Hockey Mom", but after this weekend, I feel like I've been adequately indoctrinated into the hockey life. Before long Imma be wearing hockey pins and an airbrushed stocking cap (raise your hand if you know what I'm talking about!).


Wish me luck.

It's gonna be a lot of years of crazy busy winters...which I'm told makes them go faster (bonus!).

Have a great week!

See you tomorrow,
M.

Friday, January 6, 2017

Day 6

My babe.

Just when I start to feel like the sand is slipping through my fingers and my babies are growing up too fast, something like this happens:


She followed me into the bathroom (because: OF COURSE I can't pee in peace) after school one day, snuggled into her cozy blanket. I did my business and went to waste a few split seconds on my phone to chill after work, figuring she'd follow me out. Before long I realized she hadn't come out...I went to check on her and there she was, sound asleep on the bathroom floor.

And then today.


Curled up on her chair in her bedroom, fast asleep while waiting to go to her brother's hockey game (THAT is another post for another day. Hockey, that is...).

These moments ground me...they make me realize that while I am sad that my babies are growing so fast, that they are still just that: My babies.

They always will be.

See you tomorrow!
M.

Thursday, January 5, 2017

Day 5

Ugh. Here I sit, once again typing from my phone and cursing myself for not bringing my charger home from work. But alas, a New Year's Resolution is a New Year's Resolution and BLOG I MUST.
 
It's been fun hearing from those of you who claimed you "missed my blogging"...makes me happy that once upon a time I maybe made you laugh, or cry, or shake your fist at my writing! I feel like there are so many reasons that led to my decrease in writing...SO. MANY.

Where do I even start?

Let's start with the one most obvious to me...and probably most difficult to speak to, because I'm a pleaser. Please I must and if I don't please, GOOD GRACIOUS it eats at me. Here is a morsel of honesty for you, and for those that know me in real life, PLEASE take no offense! Remember, me = pleaser...and don't stop reading, either...okay, back to that morsel of honesty: I preferred to blog when I was more anonymous.
It seemed that as more and more people I knew "for real" started finding out about my blog that I began to feel a bit stifled. And somewhat pigeon holed. Birthday posts for errrrrbody, trying to mention this person or post a picture of that person or wrote about something that my adorable grandpa suggested I write about when what I really wanted to do was shout: BUT THIS IS MY BLOG!! And while I was proud that those that loved me enjoyed reading my blog, it made me nervous.
A little uneasy.
What if I wrote about a hot topic issue and someone mistakenly thought I was writing about them? OR, what if I DID want to write about something that was  aging at me that involved someone I knew and what if they were offended? What if I wanted to write about God or prayer and someone close to me thought I was a bible banging religious freak?
I began to struggle, a lot, with who was reading and what I was posting (which, let's be honest, can sometimes be  a good filter...albeit a stifling filter) and my post topics got narrower and narrower until I felt like al I could write about were trips to South Dakota. Or something. ;) And before long I slipped into a pattern of dreaded obligation and gah, who wants THAT in their life. Check this out:

 


I went from near daily posting to half that and then dropped off drastically each year!


Near the end of 2016 I really began to miss this blog. Writing has always been my strongest form of communication and it truly helps me process my thoughts. Whoda thunk that the very thing I loved initially I would grow to dread and then come full circle?! I'm still definitely finding my "groove" but man alive, I'm glad I pushed myself to start up again!

Now...to see if I can break those stifling binders and see if I can really let some of these crazy thoughts that clog brain let loose!

See ya tomorrow!
M.

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